Coversation With Nyomi

Keep in mind this isn't true. If she did mess with me further I would simply post her email and screen name everywhere I could because I know how much I hate spam.

10:45:35 AM D: hello

10:46:05 AM Nyomi: what up hon

10:46:29 AM D: y u diss me likethat yesterday?

10:46:53 AM Nyomi: what did i do hon

10:47:24 AM D: and y u send me that pic from ifriends

10:48:12 AM Nyomi: those were my tits i wanted you to see what you were going to get

10:48:40 AM D: so u have a web cam?

10:48:57 AM Nyomi: no

10:49:09 AM Nyomi: a digital cam

10:49:40 AM D: so how u got your pic on ifriends

10:50:22 AM Nyomi: that pic was from my cam that i took in my house

10:52:26 AM D: Currently Online - FREE

10:52:46 AM Nyomi: whats that

10:52:59 AM D: look at it

10:53:12 AM Nyomi: ok

10:54:32 AM D: on aol when u copy a picture you copy the path you took it from

10:54:46 AM Nyomi: whateva

10:55:05 AM D: hmmm, u talking about whatever

10:55:15 AM D: how did the pic get there

10:55:19 AM Nyomi: those is my tits

10:55:24 AM D: that’s for people w/ webcams

10:55:27 AM Nyomi: i scanned it

10:56:13 AM D: u scanned it, but that’s a webcam capture

10:56:29 AM Nyomi: no its a digital cam pic

10:56:59 AM D: so take a pic of your face now and send it to me, i’m more interested in that anyway

10:57:11 AM Nyomi: OK

10:57:24 AM D: better yet take a pic of your upper body and send to me now

10:57:56 AM D: still here

10:58:00 AM D: i’m waiting

10:58:22 AM Nyomi: well i send it at 2:00

10:58:50 AM D: ummm, y at 2?

10:59:27 AM D: y not now, y everytime i ask u for something, it has to be at this time

10:59:31 AM Nyomi: Cause thats when i am going to bath

10:59:36 AM D: y not just do it

10:59:58 AM D: what u bathing got to do w/ a pic of your upper body

11:00:10 AM Nyomi: i want it to be clean

11:00:49 AM D: it’s not gonna show up in the pic and y u bathing then

11:01:04 AM Nyomi: cause i want to

11:01:05 AM D: it’s just like the other day when u were supposed to call

11:01:33 AM D: then you send me a damn pic from ifriends and tell me it’s yours

11:01:47 AM Nyomi: it is mine

11:02:03 AM D: i asked how u got it on ifriends if u don’t have a webcam, you said u scanned it

11:02:20 AM D: u can’t scan a picture from a digital camera

11:02:55 AM D: and of all things i asked u b4 if you had pictures u said no

11:03:56 AM Nyomi: whateva you can scan a digi cam pic what r u a computer expert

11:05:32 AM D: ummm, duh

11:05:41 AM Nyomi: lol

11:05:49 AM D: i told u i was a graphic designer

11:05:53 AM D: pc/mac

11:06:10 AM D: qualified for at least help desk technician

11:06:15 AM Nyomi: oh well i know alot about comp too

11:06:40 AM D: ahhhh, but u just told me u can scan a digital pic

11:07:16 AM Nyomi: well if you connect a digi cam to a comp doesn’t the pic come up or not

11:07:31 AM D: if i weren’t i wouldn’t have known where u got the pic

11:07:50 AM D: yes, when u upload it

11:08:26 AM D: do u want me to give u the date and time and what web cam the picture was taken?

11:08:26 AM Nyomi: im done talkin about that shit get over it

11:08:31 AM D: i can do that too

11:09:01 AM D: and i might even be able to tell you who put it up

11:10:24 AM D: see, here’s the thing

11:10:51 AM D: if u didn’t send me the pic i wouldn’t care either way

11:11:06 AM D: u sent it and said it was yours

11:11:24 AM D: i’m not into being lied to

11:11:25 AM Nyomi: IT IS MINE

11:11:41 AM D: then u tell me i have to wait till two to get a pic

11:11:48 AM D: it don’t look right

11:12:02 AM D: i’m not saying it’s not yours

11:12:10 AM Nyomi: IT’S MINE

11:12:25 AM D: i just said send me a pic direct from you now

11:12:29 AM D: that’s it

11:13:21 AM Nyomi: :-P

11:13:38 AM D: and u don’t want to

11:14:03 AM Nyomi: i already sent one take it or leave me alone

11:14:36 AM D: ok fine, i’m leaving u alone

11:14:42 AM D: bye

11:15:29 AM Nyomi: peace out

11:16:53 AM D: i will say one thing

11:17:03 AM Nyomi: whats that

11:18:46 AM D: u were surprised that i was still willing to talk to you after u described yourself, y would u want to mess something like that up? I just don’t know, anyhow be happy and stop spreading yourself thin, for the most part u seem like a good person, take care

11:22:01 AM D: ummm, yes i am a very nice guy, too bad things didn’t work out

11:22:18 AM Nyomi: your too cute

11:23:02 AM D: i know

11:23:17 AM D: and it’s ashamed you’re going to miss out

11:23:29 AM Nyomi: i would still like to be your girl

11:24:56 AM D: not gonna happen, u can’t comply

11:25:03 AM D: i made it real simple for u

11:25:23 AM Nyomi: comply with what

11:25:27 AM D: and i g2 get the bs

11:26:16 AM Nyomi: can i b ur girl im sorry

11:26:19 AM D: and like u said peace out

11:26:35 AM Nyomi: that was a joke

11:26:43 AM D: no it wasn’t

11:27:07 AM Nyomi: yes it was i was going to leave you a sexy email

11:28:07 AM D: see it wouldn’t make a diff. i still don’t have my answers

11:28:29 AM Nyomi: what r the ?’s

11:29:04 AM D: you would have answered it w/ a pic

11:29:18 AM D: but nm, i don’t care to see it anymore

11:30:05 AM Nyomi: you saw my pic

11:30:25 AM D: ummm, no i didn’t

11:32:11 AM D: so bye, have a happy one

11:32:29 AM Nyomi: i’ll miss you

11:32:40 AM D: no u won’t

11:32:55 AM Nyomi: i will

11:34:30 AM Nyomi: i still want to taste your big cock

11:36:05 AM D: u not even gonna get close enough for me to smell u

11:36:50 AM Nyomi: when i come there i will

11:36:59 AM D: yeah right

11:37:29 AM D: like i said i still don’t have my answers, until u show me different u lied

11:37:53 AM D: and u giving me the run around doesn’t tell me different

11:37:55 AM Nyomi: i did not lie

11:38:26 AM D: i don’t even know y i’m still talking to u

11:38:35 AM D: i guess i’m too nice

11:38:57 AM D: bye anyway

11:41:44 AM Nyomi: i miss you already

11:42:22 AM D: i doubt that, but it doesn’t matter

11:42:35 AM D: so like i said have a happy life

11:45:09 AM D: should i block u? If this is going to become harassment I thing I should block u

11:48:12 AM Nyomi: no you should not

11:50:45 AM D: so this means you will stop IMing me voluntarily?

11:51:21 AM Nyomi: nope

11:51:34 AM D: then i’m blocking u

11:51:39 AM D: i feel lied to

11:51:59 AM D: and i asked you to prove me wrong

11:53:03 AM Nyomi: i want to b ur girl

11:53:11 AM D: u can’t

11:53:32 AM D: bc i can’t trust u

11:53:37 AM Nyomi: y not

11:53:49 AM Nyomi: im sorry you feel like i lied to you but i didnt

11:54:09 AM D: i offered u the opportunity to prove that

11:55:34 AM D: and u didn’t take it

11:56:58 AM D: and if u had a digital camera, y didn’t i get a pic sooner

11:57:07 AM Nyomi: im sorry

11:57:25 AM D: i can sit here all day w/ the y y ys

11:57:26 AM Nyomi: i couldnt find the connector cord

11:58:00 AM D: then u have the op now and u ain’t taking it

11:58:21 AM D: so i guess u shit out of luck

11:59:15 AM Nyomi: lets start over baby

12:00:41 PM Nyomi: hi im nyomi

12:00:45 PM D: nah, that’s cool

12:00:56 PM D: i’m not in the mood for games

12:04:30 PM D: now what was that?

12:04:56 PM D: ???

12:05:10 PM Nyomi: i want you to fuck me right now baby

12:05:20 PM D: my wireless network went offline

12:05:27 PM D: yeah right

12:05:42 PM D: it’s not gonna happen

12:06:15 PM D: all u had to do was take off your t-shirt and send me a pic with your face in it

12:06:21 PM Nyomi: yes it is cause we both want it

12:06:24 PM D: and u made that mad hard

12:06:42 PM D: ummm, i have never said i wanted to fuck u

12:07:07 PM Nyomi: yea you did

12:07:48 PM D: no i didn’t, i have a log of all of our conversations

12:09:41 PM D: like i said, i made it simple

12:09:53 PM D: and u pissed it away

12:10:08 PM Nyomi: bye yo

12:10:33 PM D: lol

12:10:45 PM D: i take it this is the last time u IMing me

12:11:54 PM D: bye

12:26:35 PM D: i meant what i said tho

12:26:50 PM D: i want u to take care of yourself and be alright

12:29:30 PM Nyomi: ok take care your kids

12:30:30 PM D: i have one kid damn it

12:31:07 PM Nyomi: sorry but you remember when i first talk to you, you said you aint had no kids but i aint mad about that

12:31:26 PM D: i never said no shit like that

12:31:36 PM D: i would never deny my son

12:31:48 PM D: u got the wrong damn person

12:32:23 PM D: i have pictures of him on my blog, i think i even mention him in my profile

12:32:35 PM D: so wtf are u talking about

12:33:03 PM D: like i told u, i would rather hurt u than lie to u

12:33:04 PM Nyomi: i know what you said

12:33:21 PM D: like i said, i got messages

12:33:32 PM D: adium saves them automatically

12:33:43 PM Nyomi: me too

12:37:05 PM D: i just sent u our 1st convo

12:37:14 PM Nyomi: ok

12:37:22 PM D: we’ve only had six

12:37:46 PM D: and i can pattern match the convos for key words

12:38:48 PM D: it was on july 30th, the day b4 my bday

12:39:31 PM D: including this one

1:16:41 PM Nyomi: what up homie? you miss me ? cause i sure do miss you

1:16:59 PM D: no

1:17:10 PM D: what makes u think i was playing?

1:17:34 PM Nyomi: you was

1:18:00 PM Nyomi: i want you

1:19:17 PM D: bullshit

1:19:47 PM Nyomi: no bs

1:20:30 PM Nyomi: i do want you.
you stimulate my mind

1:21:08 PM D: this is not a game sweety, u coulda had a good friend

1:21:46 PM Nyomi: and i do want you as my friend ok im sorry you dont believe me

1:22:51 PM Nyomi: baby i miss you as my buddy so please forgive me now baby

1:24:13 PM D: forgive u for what

1:24:31 PM D: wtf is so hard about taking a pic and sending it

1:24:33 PM Nyomi: forgive me cause you think i lied to you

1:24:48 PM D: this convo would have been dead 2 hours ago

1:26:24 PM D: .::dramatizations::.

1:26:48 PM Nyomi: whats that

1:27:50 PM Nyomi: i miss you as my friend and all that othe rgood stuff we were

1:28:58 PM D: i can’t be friends w/ people i can’t trust

1:29:14 PM Nyomi: you can trust me

1:29:25 PM D: no i can’t

1:29:33 PM Nyomi: yes you can

1:29:39 PM D: u been feeding me a line since the other day

1:29:55 PM Nyomi: what line was that

1:30:19 PM Nyomi: i miss you

1:32:05 PM Nyomi: you cant be mad 4ever

1:32:54 PM D: u don’t know me

1:33:05 PM Nyomi: yes i do

1:33:12 PM D: but thru all this u still ain’t snap the pic and send it

1:33:23 PM D: just shows u full of shit

1:33:45 PM D: like i said u coulda killed all this long ago

1:35:08 PM Nyomi: how long are you going to be mad at me

1:36:12 PM D: i’m not gonna stay mad, i’m about to block u

1:36:35 PM Nyomi: whateva nigga fuck you stupid ass nigga

1:36:59 PM D: see

1:37:09 PM Nyomi: sorry i miss you

1:37:55 PM D: nah, u said your piece, this one nigga u will never have the chance to fuck

1:41:29 PM D: but i’m glad i got to see u for what u r sooner than later

Nyomi disconnected (1:45:20 PM)

4:43:21 PM Nyomi: so you waited for me huh?

4:43:21 PM D (Autoreply): ♫ violet blue - open source sex 12

4:43:36 PM D: yeah fucking right

4:44:09 PM Nyomi: you miss me

4:44:22 PM D: nope

4:44:56 PM Nyomi: well i miss you thats why i signed on hoping we could talk

4:45:25 PM D: talk for what

4:45:46 PM D: it’s after 2 i still ain’t got the damn picture u said u would send

4:46:03 PM Nyomi: i forgot about that

4:46:29 PM D: remember, “fuck you nigga, stupid ass nigga”?

4:46:44 PM D: what ever, like i said, more bull shit

4:47:02 PM Nyomi: i’m sorry i was’nt myself

4:47:51 PM D: whatever

4:48:06 PM D: u can continue not being yourself by yourself

4:48:09 PM Nyomi: come on lets talk like adults

4:48:59 PM D: i do not want to talk to u anymore

4:49:06 PM D: u have issues

4:49:21 PM Nyomi: no i dont i was only fuckin wit u earlier

4:49:44 PM D: u keep saying that

4:49:49 PM D: leave me be

4:50:11 PM Nyomi: no please

4:50:39 PM D: bye

4:52:18 PM Nyomi: baby baby baby i got so much love in me

4:52:45 PM D: and u plan to share it w/ the world

4:53:06 PM D: u won’t miss me, i can stake my life on that

4:53:47 PM Nyomi: i wont live much longer without you…… im coming to see you right now

4:54:59 PM D: whatever

4:55:07 PM D: how would u do that

4:55:23 PM Nyomi: i would drive

4:55:53 PM D: u don’t have an address and u ain’t got a number

4:56:40 PM Nyomi: when i get to 56 i would ask around 4 u

4:58:18 PM D: yeah right

4:58:33 PM D: no 1 knows me, wtf i look like

4:58:41 PM D: anyhow bye

4:59:34 PM Nyomi: i miss you already

4:59:46 PM D: y won’t u leave me alone

4:59:57 PM D: i haven’t blocked u bc it’s a hastle

5:00:07 PM Nyomi: make me cum then i’ll leave

5:01:12 PM D: see, u will never have the chance to see what that’s like

5:01:30 PM Nyomi: make me virtually cum

5:01:34 PM D: Mr. Friday Night can help u with that

5:01:50 PM D: Or Mr. Next Friday Night

5:02:09 PM Nyomi: he helped me out last night but i want you

5:03:41 PM D: ha

5:03:51 PM D: ok, i’m blocking u, now

Nyomi disconnected (5:04:01 PM)

Nyomi connected (5:04:11 PM)

5:06:02 PM Nyomi: you you be online all day you aint got no life or what

5:06:03 PM D (Autoreply): ♫ Quiet

Nyomi disconnected (5:07:01 PM)

Nyomi connected (5:07:05 PM)

5:08:22 PM D: if u don’t leave me alone right now, i will not block u

5:08:32 PM D: i will do something much worse

5:08:43 PM Nyomi: like what

5:09:01 PM D: u will find out

5:09:36 PM D: don’t be surprised if some1 knocks on the door in the morning

5:10:39 PM D: and then in the afternoon

5:10:49 PM Nyomi: u know where i live

5:10:54 PM D: and tomorrow night

5:10:57 PM D: yes

5:11:10 PM D: information flows freely on the web

5:11:20 PM D: so go ahead and fuck with me

5:12:14 PM D: i will post your address, phone number, email and screen name on my blog and yahoo and aol, every where i can

5:12:43 PM Nyomi: but i address is not online

5:13:21 PM D: ummm, the person who registered the aol account address is

5:13:55 PM Nyomi: i bet i will sick the cops on your ass

5:14:17 PM D: ummm, you stalking me, i got the messages here remember

5:14:34 PM D: and all u know is my 1st name

5:14:54 PM D: like i told u before everything has info attached to it

5:15:04 PM D: like i said fuck w/ me

5:15:32 PM D: and i didn’t do anything

5:16:06 PM Nyomi: you dont even know my first name

5:16:14 PM D: and if i post the info i still didn’t do anything

5:16:37 PM D: i don’t need it

5:16:42 PM D: i know where u are

5:16:58 PM D: u aren’t the only one there, everyone will be affected

5:17:25 PM D: effected, sorry

5:17:31 PM D: all because of u

5:18:05 PM D: see, the difference is i know how to hide my info

5:18:18 PM Nyomi: shutup stupid

5:18:30 PM D: ok, going once…

5:18:43 PM D: going twice…

5:18:52 PM D: nm, 4get the count

5:18:59 PM D: i’m just gonna fo it

5:19:23 PM D: u won’t even know where to look for your info

5:19:32 PM D: and u can’t remove it

5:19:38 PM Nyomi: how the fuck you know

5:19:54 PM D: bc u not smart enough

5:20:18 PM D: so consider this your final warning

5:20:32 PM Nyomi: im calling the cops

5:21:03 PM D: good, i’m sure they will be very interested in all of our convos if they could ever track me down

5:21:37 PM Nyomi: bye physco

5:21:44 PM D: and did u forget, u pursued me, not i u

5:21:53 PM D: so who’s the psycho

5:22:15 PM Nyomi: bye stop talkin to me

5:22:30 PM D: i offered u friendship and u pretty much spit in my face

5:22:48 PM D: i want an apology for everything

5:22:55 PM D: and i want it sincere

5:23:01 PM Nyomi: how does that make you feel

5:23:14 PM D: what?

5:23:25 PM D: the whole spit in my face thing?

5:23:35 PM Nyomi: yea

5:23:38 PM D: not as bad as you are going to

5:23:49 PM D: so where’s my apology?

5:24:00 PM Nyomi: is that a threat

5:24:07 PM D: no

5:24:43 PM D: i don’t make threats and i wouldn’t threaten a female

5:25:11 PM Nyomi: so what do you call what you are doing

5:25:26 PM D: i just want an apology and for u never to contact me again

5:25:59 PM Nyomi: if i apologize you can garantee i will contact you again cause we are friends

5:26:12 PM D: nope

5:26:28 PM D: i’m serious

5:26:44 PM D: btw, stalking is a federal crime

5:26:56 PM D: and that’s what u are doing to me

5:27:49 PM Nyomi: am i sitting outside your crib n

Nyomi disconnected (5:30:09 PM)

Open Source Sex 13

Violet Blue
Dorkbot SF Teledildonics Presentation
Open Source Sex 13

This is basically a lecture on advanced virtual sex.

The Nobodies

 I feel sad for myself and the world. Actually, I really feel like shit.

♫ Marilyn Manson
The Nobodies
Holy Wood (In the Shadow of the Valley of Death)

Yesterday I was dirty
wanted to be pretty
I know now that I'm forever dirt

We are the nobodies
we wanna be somebodies
when we're dead,
they'll know just who we are

M!ck3y just told me to go to hell then kissed me goodbye.

The Nyomi Bitch

adium_nyomi, originally uploaded by Dramatic. Now tell me I don't come across some stupid bitches.

To all the females with poor self esteem, you aren't alone. Take care of yourself.

Why Is Everyone Fucking with Me?

♫ Slipknot
The Nameless & The Virus of Life
Vol. 3: (The Subliminal Verses)

I never wanted anybody more than I wanted you,
The only thing I ever really loved was hurting you.

I can see you but you can't see me
I could touch you and you wouldn't even feel me
Wait a second and you'll settle down
I'm just waiting 'til you really let your guard down
You're relaxed, you're sublime, you're amazing
You don't even know the danger that you're facing
If I'm quiet, I'll slide up behind you
And if you hear me, I'll enjoy trying to find you

I've been with you all day
I'm trying to stay calm
I'm impatient and it's really hard to breathe
I'm going to empty you and fill you in with me
Just keep the violence down
Not yet - don't make a sound
Oh, God I'm feeling it
it's reaching fever pitch
My skin is caving in
My heart is driving out
No mercy, no remorse
Let nature take it's course

M!ck3y seems to want to make it her priority to piss me off. She won't let up. She is driving me fucking nuts, so much so, it's to the point I don't even want to see her today.

Then this female I met online named Nyomi is trying to convince me a pair of tits, that she got off of iFriends Network, are hers. They are pretty average, especially since I'm used to D and larger. I wasn't interested in her breasts anyway, a pic of her face would have been better. I offered her a chance to send me a picture from today so i can see. I mean send it directly from your computer, not copied from a URL. Besides there is too much info appended to pictures. The thing that really struck me wasn't that she might have been on iFriends, but that she didn't have a web cam… feel me. Then she says she has a digital camera, but will send me a pic at 2 p.m., I was talking to her at like 10:30 a.m.

I'll post a little more later.

Danger Keep Away

♫ Slipknot
Danger Keep Away (Full Length Version)
Vol. 3: (The Subliminal Verses) [Special Edition Bonus Disc]

Why Keema gonna go start some shit. She know I don't deal with her bad ass little brother. Why she gonna try to send him up here, especially since she and I aren't talking. Her mother calls here upset and left a message, like I give a fuck. I can do without the bullshit tho.

What Does This Mean?

mariposa1190's Xanga Site - 8/26/2005 8:02:07 AM

I don't know what's up. I feel like secrets are being kept from me. Being that M!ck3y and Tazhy are keeping the secret, it probably involves me.

…i'm starting to get wind of a very important and drastic change in her life…

Tazhy goes on to say, that she missed M!ck3y… what is it? Didn't she miss me?

WTF Is Wrong With Everyone? 2

Why is everyone acting up? My mother calls me today and tells me I didn't feed the kids, my nephews, because I did not want to wash some dishes. You haven't the slightest idea how much that irked my nerves. Then to put up with M!ck3y's crap all day…

I'm just barely teetering of pissed off and f'n angry. I mean today, I was trying to be as productive as I've ever been. I have been setting up reminders for phone calls and gathering information so I can get a good start this week on trying to find a job. I may even go out tomorrow. I don't have any copies of my resume printed, but I will make due with what I have.

As you can see I am not quite as angry. I write how I think and writing helps me release.

This thought isn't about anyone plucking my nerves but why is it that every female I come in contact with swears she can screw me if she wants. I personally am not trying to slide up in everyone like that. In fact, if I had that one, I would only be sleeping with that one. Not to say I am sleeping with many, but I have a choice and could have more.

M!ck3y doesn't feel that we will be seeing each other much this fall and asked me to set aside a weekend, at least, a month. This would be "our weekend." I do not have a problem with that. She feels if she is doing all the things she wants to do, that she wouldn't have time to see me otherwise. Additionally, she has faith that I will be working by the time school starts, which is in like two (2) weeks. I don't think seeing her will be a problem because I am helping her with most of her plans and she with some of mine. We are interweaving ourselves into each other's lives. We also never make plans together and not keep them. Not that we will never break or postpone our plans, but it isn't very likely.

WTF Is Wrong With Everyone?

Tazhy just walked by me without so much as a word. Then after praising me for the last few days, M!ck3y decides she wants to be stupid, on the day I don't get to see her.

This post was made via the browser on my PSP.

My Mood

Today I am starting off the day a little upset, it's the whole procrastination thing. It ends here, at least for the time being.

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Now you too can have a GMail account.

WTF IS Going On?

♫ Mobb Deep
Drink Away The Pain (Situations) f. Q-tip
The Infamous

Seems my mother is running around on this weird rampage, cutting everything off. She cut off the cable, the DSL. It's not like her and it wouldn't make a difference but she isn't telling the boys anything.

On to me and my issues. Still women can't seem to make up their minds. Until I started talking to "This One," I have never been so confused. Then "That One" has been broadcasting signals and doing stuff like kissing my neck and acting as tho it never happened.

OK, I started this post on the 10^th of August. I am still bumpin' "Drink Away The Pain and females still can't seem to make up their minds. I'm still Confused.

By now you know I went to Florida and came back. Cynthia has tried to contact me a couple of times. Seems like the only thing she knows how to say is "I'm sorry." Frankly, I don't want to hear it anymore.

Now this girl, Keema's friend who said explicitly that she hated me, is now claiming me as a friend. WTF is the world coming to?

Can't Focus

I am having trouble focusing, I guess this is what happens when you have too much on your mind. I need to prioritize. I'm starting to procrastinate again. I at least need to be more structured in my procrastination.

I ran into this article about Google Talk with an interesting statement in this article GoogleTalk: It's Here. It's Live. It Works On Your Mac.:

Why does Google want to launch a new messaging service to compete with AOL, Yahoo, Microsoft, and others?

Because they can.

Arguably, Google gets more daily hits and visitors than anybody. That traffic in human flesh needs to remain Google’s. It’s also part of the desktop wars. Microsoft sort of owns the desktop but is in a weakened marketing position. Many people hate Microsoft.

I have been a fan, of sorts, of Google and it's services. My only real gripe with them is the lack of support for Mac. If it isn't browser–based, you can pretty much forget about it. I use Hello and Picasa on the PC. Hello I love, Picasa really isn't necessary. I like iPhoto better on the Macintosh and Picasa isn't needed at all on Mac. I only used Hello for posting pictures here, on Blogger. I wish there was a Hello plug-in for iPhoto like the bitchin' FlickrExport, I have come to love sooo much.

I am also one of those people that hate Microsoft. Hmmm! I am thinking about getting Microsoft certified tho. Hahaaa!

M!ck3y

I love M!ck3y more than words can express!

I'm Baaack!

OK, OK, OK! Hold your applause. Short post coming…

Went to Florida, came back more tired than I left. I got sunburned on my balled head and face. Otherwise an uneventful trip. The journey was more exciting.

Anyhow I'm back. Wondering now what the fuck was the point. I should have tried to contact Destiny while I was out there. Seems like the people who I missed switched their focus from loving me to pissing me the fuck off. I haven't spoken to Tazhy yet tho…

Orlando, Fl

We just got to Orlando. Nothing special so far. We — Darrell, Daivon, Taniesa and I — are in the airport waiting for the rest of the fam. Making calls letting everyone know we arrived safely.

Ok now they are here, we are at Baggage claim. One of Will's previous flights lost one of his bags.

His other little boy is a terror, I mean I guess all of them are. The combination of Will and Delrina was bound to have severe consequences, but Will, Jr. is something else. I guess he's not used to me yet.

Stephanie, 29 Hours Later

Stephanie, originally uploaded by Dramatic. Me doing me

This photo has been getting a lot of a lot of views since I posted it about 29 hours ago. None of my pictures, have gotten as much attention. The most views until yesterday was about 28. This one has 166 at the time of this post.

Stephanie

Stephanie, originally uploaded by Dramatic.

wakeupmotherfucker

wakeupmotherfucker, originally uploaded by DrJoanne. The morning after a ménage à trois has gone terribly, terribly awry...

This brings back some seriously fucked up memories for me like the destroyed "Dramatic Sex Tapes." LOL

To A Former Friend

I once loved you more than any other.

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
…

The other night was our last stand…

Get Well Soon, M!ck3y

My poor M!ck3y is sick with pneumonia in Panama. Please get well soon. I miss you!  

Camino

I've decided to give it a shot for a while.

Interesting Message on Flickr

This is the message I saw on Flickr about 1:30 a.m. today.

 

Confused

What's up with females these days. Seems like the ones I come across on the web or on the street are either stuck in weird relationships type things, engaged in alternate lifestyles or can't seem to make up their fuckin' minds.

I'm talking to Stephanie, last night, and she lays this whole I can't trust guys shit on me. She said they put her thru too much shit. Am I wrong for thinking I'm not one of those guys? I mean fuck, shit, piss, Goddamnit all. Ok, she and I are not together -- we aren't even fucking -- and it's like she gets jealous about little things. I only have female friends, you knew that when you decided you wanted to holla at me, get over it. She doesn't say it directly but you can see it in her face.

For me, you have my trust until you give me a reason not to trust you, it's that simple. Her phone book is full of guys numbers. She's even called me from other guys numbers and it was OK. Why? Because she was thinking of me.

One minute she's all over me and the next she trying to distance herself and when I take a step back because I don't understand she gets upset.

What gives? Am I feeling the wrong way? Am I handling it wrong?

Hennessy

Hennessy, yes or no? This happens to be my favorite alcohol beverage. I like it on the rocks when I just want to chill or with coke when I just want a little buzz. Hmmm! I also like Belvedere. Maybe me and my new friend can do "Jello Shots" this weekend.

Do you like Hennessy or Belvedere? How do you like it? Or do you prefer something else and how do you like that? Do you have any good drink recipes you'd like to share?

Hmmm!

I'm bored again. Still finding things I hate about other web designs. I hate quirks mode. I hate billion celled tabled layouts. I hate it when designers pass off templates as their own and accept full credit for the design.

Does anyone happen to know of any good free "text editors" for PC?

Yahoo! 360

I now have a Yahoo! 360 page here.

It started as a test. I wanted to see what was up. 360 is like an extended Yahoo! profile page. It has a blog feature, it allows you to keep lists, to share photos and you can designate who sees what. My favorite feature is the feeds feature. I don't have to start a new blog, the RSS feeds link to my recent posts on blogger.

Check it out, could be a new way to get people to your blog.

Webpages

Hmmm! I've been looking over the IGT Marketing website and I'm realizing when James, Roman and I looked it over I missed some things that I normally would have noticed away.

I hate when designers use absolute URLs. I don't think everything has to point to http://www…. Doesn't it also use more bandwidth.

If a web designer is reading my blog please leave a comment. I am naive about most of these things and I would like to know.

Apache Server Configure…

At least for my purposes anyway. I just needed a testing environment for the websites I design.

I am still bored. Ozzy came by and we, my sister and I, set her up on the websites. And she looked all happy. If she had a computer she'd probably be on it all the time. That wouldn't be a bad thing tho.

Anyway, I'm firing up Dreamweaver so that I can add the footer to the IGT Marketing website. I just want a simple link for them to click to view the progress. I will probably password protect it so as to not give anything away before they are ready to show it off. It will not be anything spectacular. They wanted all the bells and whistles, but that isn't going to happen. I don't have the time or the knowledge. The site will evolve as I do.

Boredom

I am sitting here with my little boy and my two (2) nephews and I'm f'n (kids in the room) bored out of my mind. I really miss M!ck3y. She went to Panama on Monday morning. If she were here, she'd at least be making me mad. Probably chastising me for taking time away from her and allotting it to Stephanie. I had to tell her not to call me as often as she has been since she left. Not that I don't want to hear from her, but she should be enjoying her time away and having as much fun as possible before she comes back. We both have a lot to take care of.

Right now I'm procrastinating. I once read that procrastination is an evasion tactic. It's just the name given to the act of not doing something you should be doing by doing something else. Right now I'm supposed to be configuring the Apache web server on my Powerbook so that I can begin work on the IGT website and set up a footer on the remote site so that they can check the progress. Simply enough, I am evading by blogging about what I should be doing.

Ozzy should be here in about an hour. I will then be helping her set up a Hi5 account. Ozlyn is Stephanie's best friend, in case you were wondering.

I'm going to run off and do a bit of cleaning and take a shower before she gets here. I will probably finish configuring Apache before it's dark unless I can find something else I'd rather be doing.

LOL

I spent the greater part of this morning kicking people off my phone because it was dying. I just remembered that I can charge it through my computer. Sorry guys.

Before and After

Scruffy, originally uploaded by Dramatic. This is the last picture I took before my birthday. Don't I look kinda gross, LOL, everyone likes the facial hair tho. I don't it's not me.

My Birthday, originally uploaded by Dramatic. These are the pictures I took this morning. They are the after shots to the previous one. Which ones looks better, the one with the beard or the ones without?

Dating Again

I haven't dated anyone in 3 years, yesterday, since Destiny left. Recently, I've been interested in several people to varying degrees.

Two of these ladies I met through M!ck3y, Geoconda and Cyre, both are her cousins. She began an introduction to Geo about a month and a half ago, but I met Cyre first. She had always talked about Cyre because she visits her on a regular basis in Jersey. When I saw her for the first time she was nothing special. Cyre just came to the door, stood about ten (10) feet away from the the door and waved, then scurried off. She explained that she wasn't in any condition to meet anyone. Like two (2) days later we went to the Apple Store for my external Firewire drive when the internal drive began to fail.

The day began when M!ck3y got out of church, she looks so cute in her skirts, like such a lady. Cyre was along, she wanted to see me and so forth, I wanted to see her too, not gonna front. She had this scowl nearly the whole time, she smiled a little bit before we reached our destination. When she's frowning, you can't look at her too long. To describe her expression accurately, you have to find a word worst than ugly. When she smiles, on the other hand, she could light the fireplace in the next house. When we got to Manhattan Mall she snapped at M!ck3y, for no reason at all. I made her laugh and smile a bit and told her she was there because I asked M!ck3y to bring her. We talked a bit, she asked questions about sex, and so on.

Fast forward… Miscellaneous phone conversations… Instant messenger sessions… Play… Like two days later we were hanging out at I guess my sister's and I place with M!ck3y. The evil face was in effect. I got mad because she hit me hard. If she had been smiling at the time I might not have taken it as a threat. When I stopped playing with her she got all affectionate, wanting to pet me and hold me. I liked her laying her head in my chest and wrapping her arms around me. The cutest moment was when she looked at me with a frown and forced herself to smile.

Fast forward… An uneasy silence… Renewed interest… Play… She said she had not tried to contact me because she thought that I did not want to speak to her. She thought that I was mad about how she'd acted the week prior. Anyway on Wednesday, of that week, M!ck3y asked if I could go to Key Food with her and Cyre. I was talking to M!ck3y and ignoring Cyre, I just felt it was better left alone. She was not having that. She was playing with me, touching me… Then M!ck3y jumped on my back, she wanted a ride, but she was too tall and could not get a up high enough on my back so her legs were restricting my movements. Cyre was quite a bit easier, she was a little lighter. The difference was in her positioning. She was shorter, like 4'11". Because her legs, when wrapped around me, were resting on my hips. She held on to me tight like she did the week before and just laid there. Then she wanted to ride the other way which was a lot easier and more appealing to me. She laid her head on my chest, we kissed a bit, I got to hold her near perfect ass to support her. We got to talk a little bit, mostly she just stared me.

Why is it when you ignore a woman, she gives you so much attention and when you show her attention she makes you chase?

The next day M!ck3y treated us and my little brother, Daivon, to pizza. Daivon is closest to her in age and invited him so that she wouldn't feel out of place. We had mad fun that night. I folded a dollar in the shape of a heart and wrote my number on it for Cyre. It was her dollar, but I knew she couldn't spend it after I did that. I got a nice little kiss and a hug. We've spoken on the phone a couple of times, nothing major.

Geo on the other hand, was a big let down. I don't like indecisive women, even tho it' the natural state of being for most. Sometimes it's cute, but this wasn't one of them. Without getting too into detail… After assuring me over and over again that she and her X and best friend were done, why aren't we exploring each other further? She swore it was done. I knew different. Problem is, even tho we never met physically, I really believe she could have been the one. I know M!ck3y was advising her as to what to say, how to approach me and proper "Dramatic" etiquette. The point is she tried and she was excited about me. I would have liked to get to know her, better. She said she wants to be friends and still get to know each other. I don't see this working.

Anyway, with the two mentioned above, Stephanie from the previous post ad the "normal" attention I usually get, I think I will resume dating.

What does it really mean when a female says they just want to be friends?

My Birthday Weekend

It's been a hot minute since I posted. So much has happened since my last post. I'm not sure where to begin, maybe from the beginning to the present or I could work my way back or maybe just pick out things as I remember it. In any event I'll work through it in the coming posts. Let's celebrate, it's my birthday, bitches. 

This weekend I am spending some time with M!ck3y. She has become an integral part of my sanity. So we are hanging out tomorrow and some part of Sunday.

Sunday night hopefully I get to spend that with Stephanie, my newest boo. We are just friends, but she's one of few that just plain likes me. She's not the type of female I usually go for. Stephanie is 5'4", slimmer than I find myself with, I'd say she's about 140lbs. She's dark-skinned and buxom. She was born in Haiti. This is not something I usually desire. I try to stay away from Haitian girls because if something was to go wrong her family blames the person she was with. I know this both from experience with them and from my own family. I told her this and she agreed.

Her friend Ozlyn is mad cool too. She told me that when Stephanie first saw me she was like "I think I like him." Then the next time she saw me she was like "I know I like him," Ozlyn said "I know, you told me yesterday." She said "No, I said I think, now I know I like him." Well that's it as close as I remember.

I met her Sunday, we spent Wednesday night together. We were just talking all night and playing, touching and so on. We were together until late Thursday. I just enjoyed being with her. Her birthday was Tuesday the 26^th, we are both leos so I expect some fireworks.

I wonder why it is when you tell a female that nothing happened, they don't believe you, but if it were them they'd expect you to.

Relationships 7/18/05

No, means no!

Relationships are like bread, you eat one then have another slice.

Cult of the Vagina

cult of The Vagina, originally uploaded by DrJoanne. Vagina trivia: Vagina dentata is Latin for toothed vagina. The myth of the vagina dentata in the Western world was popularized chiefly by Sigmund Freud, who found that it neatly meshed with his theories concerning castration anxiety.

Freud bestowed this name on the phenomenon, inspired by a number of legends about women with vaginas which were supposed to contain teeth or other weapons, and with which they were supposed to be able to murder or castrate their sexual partners. The motif is contained in a number of myths from Asia, especially Southeast Asia, where various sorts of penis panic are endemic.

Barbara Walker has speculated that this myth gave rise to the depiction of the opening of Hell as a giant mouth in medieval Europe. The tale is frequently told as a cautionary tale warning of the dangers of sex with strange women.

-from Wikipedia

Dr. Joanne is F'n amazing. Like in some of my art, I hope to someday capture the magic found in here pictures.

Fundamentally Loathsome

Update:

The Tundra post has been retitled. It has been brought to my attention that that is a picture of Crater Lake in Oregon. I just had the picture for years. It was a place I wanted to be. Quiet, pieceful, different. Thanks Colleen.

Shoot myself to love you,
If I loved myself I'd be shooting you

My capacity for emotion is being stretched. I'm starting to see patterns in certain situations. I only get to speak to Cyn when there is a possibility of sex.

It's summer time and most of my relationships started or ended during the summer or at least most of the more important moments took place in the summer.

A lot of people think I'm a tyrant. No one knows about the hurt, the cheating, the lies.

I never cared until now, either that, or I suppressed it until now and it's catching up to me.

Crater Lake (?)

It gets so hot, sometimes I wish I was here. 

July, Chapter 3.5

OK, OK, OK…

Never made it to the Apple Store. I needed my Mom's Metrocard and she had already left before I got out the house. I ended up chilling at her house all day waiting for her to come home in the comfort of the AC.

I'm bored as hell. Mickey is going away for the weekend. I have no food, no money. Did I mention I was bored?

Anyway, I may have judged Cyre, the bitchy cousin, wrong. I found yesterday that she is pretty cool, just scared. She been being hurt for a long time and only recently realized it. A lot of us can identify with that. I'm not rationalizing her behavior, she really acted up. All I am saying is that she's a better person than I gave her credit for.

Tazhy… I do not understand her. Spent months saying she doesn't like Alex, sometimes even spazzing. A week or two ago she was all into him. Now she doesn't like him again. Make up your damn mind!

Destiny has been calling me. Well she called several times over the last couple of days. The first time I told her I was on another call. I wouldn't answer her calls today.

Enough, enough, enough… Here's a picture from the walk M!ck3y and I took around the park the other day.

A Walk Around the Park 1, originally uploaded by Dramatic. M!ck3y and I at Prospect Park West while walking around the park.

July, Chapter 3

I am holding together pretty well this July.

This will be my last post from my Powerbook for at least a week. I am taking it in to the Apple Store in SoHo for for my hard drive to be replaced. I don't know how I'm going to get along without it. I spend so much time on it. I have a few projects I need to get done as well. I am working on a few things for IGT, a couple of brochures, a logo, their site...

Anyway, M!ck3y is going away this weekend and she came to say bye. I am trying to leave for the Apple Store as she leaves for the gym.

Roulette

People make challenges and dare me, they forget I have nothing left to lose. They say lightning doesn't strike twice, let's spin the chamber and find out.

Are you up for the challenge or the outcome?

M!ck3y/Dramatic Saga, chapitre 1

Why was M!ck3y talking behind my back? Why wasn't she telling me how she felt? Why did I have to read Tazhy's blog to find out the truth?

I am kinda hurt. She hated me. She wanted me dead. She didn't want to be there anymore. She said Tazhy was saying those things, which I could have understood.

If my friends can't be real with me, what's the point? This is why I have so few now and it looks like soon I'll be thinning the herd some more.

I always told them "What's in the dark always comes into the light!" If you can say something behind someones back, you should be able to say it to their face. I can put anything on my blog because I know they'll read, I don't hide anything from them. I leave the door open for then to say anything to me too.

Well it seemed she wanted to learn from me. I wanted to teach her all that I had to offer that was good. I guess this is another way in which I failed.

M!ck3y/Dramatic – The Saga

It began, so it continues. The Premies have affectionately named the friendship between M!ck3y and I.

To My Best Friend

Today, I spent the day with, as Tazhy would say, my BFF. We went for a walk around Prospect Park sans her bitchy cousin. We talked about nothing, we played, just plain had a good old time all day.

Getting Worse

Just when I think I'm at bottom and can go no lower, something happens that just kicks my ass, hard.

The hard drive on my PowerBook is failing. When I found out I was almost in tears. I think my shell is hardening again because they just would not fall. Either that, or I've given up.

Then today I had the biggest argument I ever had with M!ck3y. She was pissing me the fuck off. She kept asking me what't wrong. My life is shit, that's how it is, that's how it's been and that's how it's going to be, at least for a little while.

Lonely

I have come to the realization today that I am seriously meant to be alone. My new friend, M!ck3y's cousin,s made it clear that it just wasn't happening. I have never tried so hard to make a female feel comfortable around me, it was always something that just was.

Leo, July 23 - August 22

Leo is the fifth Sign of the Zodiac. These folks are impossible to miss, since they love being center stage. Making an impression is Job One for Leos, and when you consider their personal magnetism, you see the job is quite easy. Leos are an ambitious lot, and their strength of purpose allows them to accomplish a great deal. The fact that these folks are also creative makes their endeavors fun for them and everyone else. It's quite common to see a Leo on stage or in Hollywood, since these folks never shy away from the limelight. They are also supremely talented and have a flair for the dramatic. Warmth and enthusiasm seems to seep from every Leo pore, making these folks a pleasure to be around. They do love pleasure!

It's the Lion which symbolizes Leos, and the king (or queen) of the jungle is a most appropriate mascot, since these folks consider themselves the rulers of their universe (and the Zodiac at that). Like Lions, Leos tend to be dignified and strong, and it is this sense of their power which allows them to get things done. A Leo on your team is a good thing, since Lions are eager to see their projects through to completion. Putting these folks at the helm is a good thing, too, since the Leo-born are natural leaders. They may ruffle a few feathers along the way, however, since they can also be overbearing and somewhat autocratic. This may be in keeping with the Fixed Quality assigned to this Sign -- Lions are indeed opinionated and set in their ways. That said, they are well organized, idealistic and have a knack for inspiring others.

M!ck3y

I am so thankful for her.

This Morning…

I woke up and decided to engage in some cleaning I have been putting off.

I started with a couple of email accounts I had all but abandoned. I added all my contacts in that address book to my safe list, which allows me to accept messages only from those addresses I add to the list. I'm pretty sure I got the majority of my mailing list subscriptions and personal contacts. I sent emails to the people I haven't communicated with in a while, for some it's been years. I deleted some others. I am not finished. I'm going to give it another week or two to a month before I turn the safe list on, so that I can make sure as many people as possible make it to the list.

I started cleaning the kitchen. Dishes, miscellaneous garbage… Too bad I have to do it in sections. It's taking a while because the space I have to do the dished is small and it's not a lot of stuff, but it's too much stuff for the space I have to work with. There was a weeks worth of dishes and pots one of which was developing it's own ecosystem. The pots are soaking in some dish detergent. I haven't washed them yet because the plates and stuff aren't dry yet. I don't have a cloth to dry them with either.

Then I have my sister's rugrats running around. They really are rugrats, in the worse sense of the term. Today they are being relatively mild.

I'm trying to keep my mind occupied before I lose it, completely. Going back to what I was doing. I'll be back in a while.

Y?

Are they all hypocrites and liars?

July, Chapter 2

I don't know anymore. People have tried for so long to get me to open up, then when I need someone, no one is there. This is the second night, I can't take it anymore. Fortunately, I don't have to hide that I'm crying, there's nobody around.

I've been busting my ass looking for a job. Temp agencies are not calling me back. The on I'm registered with will not place me. Fast food and retail won't hire me. It's not like if I get any calls I can go anywhere, I don't have any carfare. I really feel like shit. All I can do now is cry.

I'm lonely, I don't even have anyone to talk to on the level I need to right now. I need someone just to lay with. I'm desperate for affection, friendship, anything remotely resembling a relationship.

I got dressed today and did nothing. I sat in the house all day. I been up since like eight (8). I barely have the will to live.

I hadn't eaten, up until half hour ago, for almost five and a half days. Mickey sent me six dollars and I can't even finish what I bought. Nowadays when I eat I get sick. I can only assume it's because I don't eat regularly.

Then on top of it all, no one understands me. Or no one cares. I don't know. I think I'm still afraid, in some ways, of being alone.

I'm used to the odds being stacked against me, it just seems like this is the time I'm going to lose.

Still Missing Tazhy

Tazhy's July 7^th post

We Still Miss Tazhy!, originally uploaded by reign4aday.

Tazhy mentioned Mickey and I in her post this morning. I do still miss her. She just makes everything lighter. Here is the clip from her post:

…to mickey and dramatic, who i would have gone crazy without (not that i'm exactly sane now). they have been there 4 like ever, even though its actually only been 6 months for one and 18 months for the other. i honestly think that they would do anything to see me happy, as long as its for my own good. (guess i didnt read the fine print. half the things that i want or that i think would make me happy are bad for me. lol) they help me get through anything and I LOVE YOU GUYZ!

I know Mickey gets jealous when I say I miss Tazhy so I will mention her too, get over it!!! 

 

2 Lighten the mood

SA03072005, originally uploaded by Dramatic. I got this in an email.

July

Last night I went to sleep just after the half of the second episode of Mobile Suit Gundam Wing: Operation 1. I thing the name was The Gundam Deathscythe. It's the one where Heero meets Duo for the first time.

I woke up not feeling too good. Physically, I'm fine. I always get depressed around this time of year. It just seems like the type of "Oh my fucking God! I'm going to slit my fucking wrists soon," type of feeling. You know the feeling that the only place for you is in hell.

I got up and put as much of my laundry together as would fit in my laundry bag. Mickey came, without calling. My sister and Mickey asking me "What's the matter?" I asked Mickey if she'd go to the laundry with me, she agreed. Today was the first time since Destiny left me, three (3) years on the 28^th, that I cried. I got up and went into the kitchen, no one saw me. It lasted seconds. I expect more. By my birthday I expect to drown in them, my tears I mean.

I ended up going alone. I am alone. Destiny told me once that I would die alone. She wasn't the first to tell me the and not the last, but it meant a lot more coming from her. At the time, it meant that she and I wouldn't be together. Here I am, I haven't been with anyone since she left, emotionally anyway. Even when I tried, like with Cynhia, it just seems it wasn't meant to happen.

I'm back now. I'm beating back my tears as I write. I always thought it was funny that I, the "Big Bad," could cry. People who have seen me might have thought it was about them, but it was about me being alone. I even answered my phone, it wasn't even for me, Mickey was asking for Darrell.

independence day: just after

independence day: just after, originally uploaded by sheeshoo. photo by ben, age 11

how i celebrated independence day. with a permanent promise to myself: to live without regret, to be true to myself, to not be afraid to acknowledge and find what i need. - sheeshoo

It reads "I regret nothing." Words I used to live by. Time to remember…

Independence Day

fireworks.184.1.650, originally uploaded by Dramatic. graphics8.nytimes.com/images/2005/07/04/nyregion/firework... The West Side was backlighted on Monday night by the fireworks over the East River, easily visible from west of the Hudson in Weehawken, N.J.

fireworks.slideone, originally uploaded by Dramatic. graphics8.nytimes.com/images/2005/07/04/national/firework... The West Side of Manhattan was backlighted by the fireworks over the East River, easily visible from west of the Hudson in Weehawken, N.J.

fourth.slide.09, originally uploaded by Dramatic. graphics8.nytimes.com/images/2005/07/04/national/fourth.s... Fireworks seen from the south tip of Roosevelt Island, N.Y.

These images are copyrighted © and owned by the new york times.

Happy 4^th NYC!

The Cumming

Coming, originally uploaded by DrJoanne.

This photograph just caught me. I was looking up random tags as I would normally put random keywords in the address field of my browser and I came across it.

Just got me thinking about all the stuff me and Destiny, Kyonna, or any of a number of my friends. As a slight Bondage/S&M fetishist, I found it to be quite sexy. Hmmm! Imagining Destiny in that scenario… That's art!

I miss the biting, choking, slapping, being bitten, choked, clawed and slapped. I miss wrapping her hair around my fingers while I… Or tearing each others clothes completely off because she and I gave into our more basic desires. I miss getting it in the park, on the roof, in the stair well, the basement, the attic, the kitchen, the restroom at TGI Friday's, or the movies. I can't begin to tell you how many movies I went to see but missed most of.

I need to find someone less inhibited. Sex seems to be getting more and more routine.

To All The Haters

21563414.img, originally uploaded by reign4aday. userimages.hi5.com/userpics/414/215/21563414.img.jpg