Monday, November 20, 2006

Thank You...

In this week of thanks, I will be dropping in every once in a while to say what I am thankful for.

I wanted to thank you, [Name withheld until later, just so we can square things off], for walking back into my life late last night and making all the things that were blurry, clear again. The connection we share is undeniable.

I have changed a lot, but know that I will never treat you any different.

Sunday, November 19, 2006

Anonymous Comments

.::dramatizations: 8 FILMS TO DIE FOR - AFTER DARK HORRORFEST::.:

I think you are a great writer. Keep it up, you are an inspiring person.

First off I would like to thank you for your comment. I sincerely appreciate it.

Everyone please use your first name or your screen name. Makes it easier to address you. Besides, I want to know who my friends and enemies are. Makes it easier to have your back or step over you respectively.

Thursday, November 16, 2006

8 FILMS TO DIE FOR - AFTER DARK HORRORFEST

8 FILMS TO DIE FOR - AFTER DARK HORRORFEST:

I am going this weekend. I am going to be in the movies all weekend by myself, like I used to. All 8 movies, I am not interested in Snoop Dogg's Hood of Horrors. I can't wait! I might tell what the movies are like as I see them or at least give a run down when it's all over.

I think keeping to myself this weekend is just what I need to clear my head. Then I am going to have a couple of shots of Hennessy to take the edge off. Sound like a plan.

Drink responsibly!

What is it this time?

Warning: I am just going to write from the heart, exactly as I would say it if I were speaking to you.

All the things I say, so much more I would like to, but there aren't words for everything. I started my day... My day started off right. Very nice. Even tho yesterday I slept through my alarm, I woke up in time to get to work on time and had time to relax in the shower, didn't have to rush or anything. While I was on the way to work called a friend and apologized for not calling her the day before, told her that I had been trying to reach her since 6:30 a.m. Then much to my surprise another friend called, we kinda just reconnected and all of that. Had a very pleasant but brief conversation, her phone was dying so the convo ended as I sat down to work.

Clocked in. Went to the front for some work, not much there. Did a minor QC, made my notes. Went back to the front. Told to go see Mary, had some logos to be traced. OMG, an easy night, not that I mind working. The whole graphics thing is just in my element. I am experiencing a bit of creativity block so I am not creating as much. I have ideas but can't seem to bring them to life. Tracing, tracing, tracing all night... which essentially means I was just fucking around. For me tracing logos, especially since I don't really know Corel is like playing for me. I am in it for the experience. Finding new things and new ways of doing old things. I fuckin' love that shit.

Listening to my shuffle. Laughing at how it seems toplay all the music relevant to my life right now. Had chicken parm from that accursed place with pasta. It always give me gas. I was, however, famished, starving, whatever. I was also laughing at how all day yesterday, people been telling me that I don't sound like I look. People who have known me for a while. The most amusing comment was that I look all ghetto but talk proper. I was also laughing about how Sherita, Ms. Writer Chick, says "talk." She has a very unique accent. I did not speak to her last night tho.

About a quarter to 7, I started bothering Octavia. I so adore her. No matter how mean she is trying to be, she makes me laugh. She always smiles when she is about to start trouble. I used to sit behind her so we used to bother each other all the time. Sat down and messed with Willie via inter-office chat. I was actually bothering everyone once I set to go on break. I been holding my breaks until the very end. Not sure why, I just been doing so.

My mother talks too much, making me sick right now.

Off subject. I come home about 15 minutes early to do my normal after work ritual and change clothes to rush off to Lil's school. My Minimee is going to Junior High School. Looking at schools for the gifted kids... Proud father am I. While I was on the train I realized that, by looking at the paper, flier again that it's not today. It's not until next month. Come home. Not quite relieved, not getting to sleep early. I am going to run out to see if I can buy my Tickets for Horrorfest this weekend.

Well I am not feeling to hot. I am wondering if loving someone is worth it at this point. To me, one person in particular is worth it, even tho I know she may never feel like I do. I am a fad to most women. They seem to be fascinated with me for a very brief period of time then poof, almost as tho I don't exist anymore. I feel like I had my one shot at love and I let it go. What it took to get to that choice is a sad story in it self. Natasha, will say, even swear that Destiny loved me. I am not so sure. I think I love someone else now. I will not tell her. She doesn't seem to be "feeling" me any more. I mean, I am being ambiguous on purpose, "feeling" me can be any number of people. I don't feel people like that. When I do I tend to seek their attention. Not getting it. Feeling like there's something wrong.

Saturday, November 11, 2006

Happy Birthday Tazhy

Mr. Pieca Wood a.k.a. Tazhy's Pet, originally uploaded by Dramatic. It's an inside joke. It was given to me during a really hard time for me from a really rough time in her life. It was kinda a symbol that to her, I was bigger than anything she was going through. It was a transfer of love and positive energy.

Only 2 other people know what this is about. I wish many times that things could go back to the way it used to be.

I want you to know that even though we aren't close anymore and things happen. I still love you and will never forget what you mean to me. Happy Birthday!

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

Happy Birthday Natasha!

You are seriously one of the people that get more beautiful every year. When I met you, you were little more than a rough uncut little girl. Now what a lovely fuckin' lady you've become. Happy Birthday again Princess!

Congratulations

Welcome Amir!:

Congratulations Dane on a job well done. She gave birth to a baby boy Saturday, November 4th. He weight 7 lb. 14 oz. Hopefully soon more information and pictures as they become available.

Amber gave birth to a 10 lb. 5 oz., 20 inch baby girl, Azrie Renee. Azrie was born on Sunday, November fifth at 3:15pm. Amber was in labor for several days.

Sunday, November 05, 2006

Happy Birthday to the Amazon Goddess!

Y'all know her as Ebony. I hope you get everything your heart desires. You're somethings special. If you keep getting older before I do. I will never catch up to you.

WTF Is Wrong with Women

wakeupmotherfucker, originally uploaded by DrJoanne. The morning after a ménage à trois has gone terribly, terribly awry...

Aside from Dr. Joanne's pictures being fucking awesome. This one sums up how I feel right now.

As you can read form my random thoughts, previous post, I am having a little woman trouble. This week, a third expressed "feeling me." Not sure exactly what that means anymore. Apparently, women not only have to have a dictionary and encyclopedia completely contrary to ours but they reserve the right to change the definitions on the fly. This one I am "feeling" but she has spent some time trying to convince me that she wasn't interested in me. No all of a sudden, she is. I kinda panicked and I think I might have offended her a bit. She and I will have no doubt talk again soon. We go through these things quite often.

The problem with her comes in the form of... I am not sure it's worth it. I mean how do I know that the window on us being more isn't closed or shouldn't have been closed? Is she ready to deal with me? Can she handle the times when I disconnect? Or when I just plain need space and forget to say so? Since I know you will read this eventually, I am sorry about the other day. I was playing and went a little too far.

The simplest situation of the two previously mentioned in A Few Random Thoughts was the one who told me she loved me. She said a lot of things to me, which she all of a sudden doesn't remember. So I will simply act like it never happened.

Now the third, the one who expressed feelings. She said she wanted to show me attention this past week. I think you are crazy. I guess this is one of those situations you were talking about where if I didn't want it he would take it. Well I don't want it and he can have it. Sometimes you were such a good friend and then you get crazy. I cannot be uneducated and not good enough and wanted by at the same time. It doesn't make sense and it's weird. Sorry to see you go yet again but goodbye. This is the last time, my life is not a revolving door. I hope you get everything you want out of life.