tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-94560502024-03-07T15:23:24.631-05:00dramatizationsDeonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15959240415874494790noreply@blogger.comBlogger447125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9456050.post-47023151488607706262008-07-15T02:06:00.001-05:002008-07-15T02:06:19.519-05:00I'm a Flirt!<p>This will be my first true cross post.</p>
<p>I just got me a new one torn. Admittedly, I was wrong. I didn't realize how out of hand things had gotten. At one point, I didn't thing I was being taken seriously, now I know different. Problem is, I may have lost two of the best females I have ever met. Like I just told them in a conversation I had with the both of them... I am sorry.</p>
<p>I flirt. I flirt a lot. A lot of the time I don't even know that I am doing it. Recently, I have realized that I have been flirting too much. If I have flirted with you, especially recently, I hope you understood that it was just flirting and meant to be harmless.</p>
<p>With the two ladies, it was different. I am not going to get into names or specifics. This is not to protect myself, but I think I have done them both enough of a disservice. I am sincerely sorry. They brought to my attention that I had been telling them both much of the same things. I can't say I am sorry enough. I am especially sorry if I have hurt anyone.</p>
<p>I have a tightness in my chest. I realize my fault. I wish there was someway to correct the situation but there isn't. Whatever happens I supposed I deserve what I get.</p>
<p>I have destroyed a confidence. I took for granted who I am and what effect I could have on other people. I try to tell everyone to read in context, but I guess I can't fault you for not knowing what's going on in my head.</p>
<p>There are no excuses. I wanted to make it right when I realized what was happening, but I realized I was weak. I have been more lonely recently and almost desperate. Someone often jokes that I am soft. The words she uses to describe me escapes me at the moment. The gist is that I am emotional and feminine, sometimes.</p>
<p>I have been lonely and sort of crying out for attention and accepting it where I could get it. In the midst of it all I have become something I am not and there is no excuse. You know the argument was made if I am going to do it, why do it where people are and interact with each other and the truth is that I never took it that serious. This time it was serious and I tried to stop it before it was too late but it was already out of my control. Now I am feeling stupid. I say again, I deserve it and probably a lot more. I may have gotten off easy. I don't think it's over though.</p>
<p>I was torn. Torn between someone who gave me all of the attention I wanted and needed and someone who seemed to want all the same things I wanted. When one wasn't there, the other was and I just went with it. It wasn't fair to either of them. I realize that. I seriously fucked up.</p>
<p>I apologize to you all for not being who you thought me to be.</p>Deonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15959240415874494790noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9456050.post-18886414554629397742008-04-05T17:36:00.001-05:002008-04-05T17:36:48.710-05:00Man Charged For Having Sex With A Patio TablePolice in Ohio say that a married father of three has confessed to repeatedly having sex with his patio picnic table. Is that really all he could find?<br/><br/><a href='http://www.asylum.com/2008/03/31/no-picnic-man-charged-with-screwing-a-patio-table/'>read more</a> | <a href='/odd_stuff/Man_Charged_For_Having_Sex_With_A_Patio_Table'>digg story</a>Deonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15959240415874494790noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9456050.post-32671961454257316692008-03-03T23:53:00.000-05:002008-03-04T01:12:25.113-05:00More Than A Month, The Catch Up<p>It's been more than a month since I last posted. Everyone of you who read regularly, knows that my blog is very personal to me. I have had a really rough year. I decided to try to focus on my real life a bit more, so I haven't been posting. Life has taken an ugly, then an uglier turn for me recently.</p>
<p>I find myself living off of fast food. Luckily I don't eat 3 meals a day and I guess definitions on what fast food is will vary. For instance, yesterday I had a Subways sandwich with a carrot juice, today I had chicken with broccoli and brown rice and tomorrow I will likely have some "red pea" soup from Mike's International Diner. Is that fast food? Then again, I am eating better this week. I fear for my health a little.</p>
<p>I have been having more frequent headaches. I am stressed and blogging used to be my way of dealing with it. So now I don't have any outlets. It's easier to share with all the strangers and few friends who know of my blog.</p>
<p>There is one plus. I am a lot more vocal. I use the phone more. I still instant message a lot and then there is <a href="http://powce.com/reign4aday" title="Add Me">Pownce</a> and <a href="http://twitter.com/reign4aday" title="Follow Me!">twitter</a>. Reading tweets is usually a pleasant part of my day. My friends keep me amused.</p>
<p>Right now I am in limbo. All of my dress clothes are mysteriously missing. What am I to do right? I will figure something out. I was being scouted for a high profile job last week and I think I botched up because I got sick. No excuses though, most of you already know. The switch is either off or on, no in between, right?</p>
<p>Anyway, that is all I have for now. I will be back shortly.</p>
Deonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15959240415874494790noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9456050.post-4874324260086328362008-01-18T16:33:00.000-05:002008-01-18T20:17:22.878-05:00Polishing<p>I have been thinking a lot about my situation. Why I am in it, what it means and what I am going to do about it. Seems that nothing bad ever happens by itself. Lost my job, ran through my savings, lost my unemployment, bedbugs, Department of Labor wants me to pay the unemployment back. Now what am I to do. A new MySpace friend sent me the quote below a couple of days ago and it seemed to make things a bit clearer.</p>
<blockquote cite="http://www.geocities.com/wisdomforthesoul/categories/attitude.html">
<p>Life is a grindstone, but whether it grinds you down or polishes you up depends on what you are made of. <br/>
- Robert E. Johnson, an African-American Entrepreneur</p>
[From <a href="http://www.geocities.com/wisdomforthesoul/categories/attitude.html"><cite> Wisdom for the Soul - Attitude </cite></a>]
</blockquote>
<p>I am thinking about my next steps. I know I am going to have to apply for Public Assistance. LOL, still makes me sick. I need medical assistance and I have no income, so I will have to apply and go through the initial process in order to get the medical insurance.</p>
<p>Right now I crippled. I can't search the web, I don't have a reliable connection. I have been connecting through Bluetooth Pan on my phone, but the only thing I seem to be able to connect to is Adium. I miss my IM buddies, the one's I talk to regularly anyway. I can't even access my email. I did make it to the library yesterday. My MacBook kept dropping the WiFi connection, so in the 3 or so hours I was there, I got little done. Every time I thought I was sending something, I wasn't, LOL.</p>
<p>I realize, I need to adjust. I just hit my low point. I refuse to fall any lower. I am being polished. I have simply grown and come too far to be ground down. I realize that I have a lot of support now, at least emotional. A lot of people believe in me, some don't even know me, but they say they see something special in me. I will not let you guys down, I will not let my son down and I will not let myself down. I have come so far and have so much farther to go.</p>
Deonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15959240415874494790noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9456050.post-40584342009347825212008-01-08T17:55:00.001-05:002008-01-08T17:55:13.613-05:00No news is...<div><div class="goalentry"><p>The other day I said no news could be good news, but when it is prolonged it most likely is bad news. I did not get the job. Time to make this happen. I am not sure what direction I am going in, but I need to get stuff going. Maybe it’s time to take another direction.</p></div><div class="goalprogresslink">See more progress on: <a href="http://www.43things.com/people/progress/reign4aday?on=9182269">find a job</a></div></div>Deonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15959240415874494790noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9456050.post-84239935932659997822008-01-06T00:37:00.001-05:002008-01-06T00:37:05.735-05:00Interview!<div><div class="goalentry"><p>I sent out ecards to the recruiters and headhunters I had mad contact with at the agencies for Christmas and New Years. Thanking them, wishing them well and letting them know I am looking forward to working with them in the new year. I even sent one to the recruiter at my previous agency, who knows if I will ever cross paths with him again.</p><p>The day after Xmas I had an interview for a word processor position which seemed to go very well. I am waiting on feedback. The hiring manager is on vacation. She should be back on Monday. I guess in this case no news is good news. I am still looking though. Who knows something better may turn up.</p></div><div class="goalprogresslink">See more progress on: <a href="http://www.43things.com/people/progress/reign4aday?on=9182269">find a job</a></div></div>Deonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15959240415874494790noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9456050.post-13633898746248915302008-01-05T14:18:00.001-05:002008-01-05T14:18:07.879-05:00Stalled<div><div class="goalimage"><a href="http://images.43things.com/entry/328242xl.jpg"><img src="http://images.43things.com/entry/328242pw400.jpg" class="goalimagetag" alt="" /></a></div><div class="goalentry"><p>My repayment plans have stalled. I have been stuck for about a month. I spent the day calling my bill collectors. Due to my inability to pay, one more account slipped into collections. One account is in collections due to an error on Macy*s part. We are trying to resolve this now.</p><p>I am hoping I can make my long term goal of being debt free by December 31 of this year. Not the way I wanted to start of 2008, but all hope is not gone.</p></div><div class="goalprogresslink">See more progress on: <a href="http://www.43things.com/people/progress/reign4aday?on=1759213">get out of debt</a></div></div>Deonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15959240415874494790noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9456050.post-44383195865391761502008-01-02T00:20:00.001-05:002008-01-02T00:20:17.913-05:00Learning JavaScript<div><div class="goalentry"><p>This has been something that has escaped me for some time. I can’t believe I have managed to procrastinate for two years. It is one of my original goal.</p><p>I intend to be familiar with at least the fundamentals of JavaScript, by the end of the month and to figure out a way to use it regularly enough not to forget everything.</p><p>I have a fairly recent tutorial that I intend to start with. All the while attempting to find new applications for it.</p></div><div class="goalprogresslink">See more progress on: <a href="http://www.43things.com/people/progress/reign4aday?on=1679647">learn javascript</a></div></div>Deonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15959240415874494790noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9456050.post-10913875612093088632007-12-31T23:06:00.001-05:002007-12-31T23:06:44.059-05:002007 in Review<p>I have been thinking a lot about what I was going to write here. I haven't felt much like blogging in a very long time. So much has happened over the last year that I chose to remain silent about.</p>
<blockquote cite="http://dramatizations.blogspot.com/2006/01/story-about-me.html">
I chose to write this because I thought it a challenge. It would be fitting in this year, my year of challenges.
[From <a href="http://dramatizations.blogspot.com/2006/01/story-about-me.html"><cite>dramatizations: A story about me</cite></a>]
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<p>More fitting may be the challenge of not saying too much this year round. I felt it would be appropriate though to take a look back at years past. So that I can give you and get a perspective of where I am coming from and where I want to go. I have met many challenges over the last few years. When I first started posting here, things weren't going well for me at all. Just waking up in the morning was a challenge. Feels like I am there again.</p>
<blockquote cite="http://dramatizations.blogspot.com/2006/01/story-about-me.html">
To borrow from Styles P, “Life is a circle of pain.” This holds true, for me especially. Growing up pretty much sucked. My sister and I have survived thieves, drug addicts, people trying to hurt us by using the condition of others against us.
[From <a href="http://dramatizations.blogspot.com/2006/01/story-about-me.html"><cite>dramatizations: A story about me</cite></a>]
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<p>Life is no longer as painful. I recognize that there is always another day. Nothing is absolute. I can no more blame anyone for my position in life than they can blame those before them. I am responsible and I am moving forward, albeit slowly. More than ever, this year I am ready to let the past go. I don't even care about what happened yesterday. Everything changes for a reason.</p>
<blockquote cite="http://dramatizations.blogspot.com/2006/01/story-about-me.html">
I was once afraid of change... Once change began to happen, it was welcomed. I had been hustling on the low almost all my life. Whether selling, lending or running, I did it. Not proud of all of it, but I made it happen. I never quit. I never said die... I had no fears. I developed them later.
[From <a href="http://dramatizations.blogspot.com/2006/01/story-about-me.html"><cite>dramatizations: A story about me</cite></a>]
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<p>Change is inevitable. I am still afraid sometimes. I still look forward to it though. I can't quit. I can't give up. I will never say die. I am ready to meet my fears head on. I am still going to make it happen.</p>
<p>I have given so much over the years. I have nothing left to give. I am tired. Tired of them taking. No one ever seems to give back or better yet, share. If we are friends, we all should benefit. I think it's time to stop giving. I will never be a taker. I only want what is due me.</p>
<blockquote cite="http://dramatizations.blogspot.com/2006/01/story-about-me.html">
I think it’s funny how when people have nothing they are willing to give their all and when they have somethings they are willing to give nothing. I was never and never will be like that.
[From <a href="http://dramatizations.blogspot.com/2006/01/story-about-me.html"><cite>dramatizations: A story about me</cite></a>]
</blockquote>
<p>What makes people do that? When you are poor, broke, hungry you are willing to share with the people who are there struggling with you. When you get a little bit, you no longer have it to give. You know what? I will not take. I beg you nothing. I will always be willing to share with those less fortunate than me. My reward will come first from my conscience, then force, karma, gravity, divine judgment or whatever you want to call it. If payback is a bitch, lol, sometimes she will give head.</p>
<blockquote cite="http://dramatizations.blogspot.com/2006/12/2006-in-review.html">
I met some people, some people came back into my life, some left temporarily, some for good… BYE! Can you see me waving? Some of you preach friendship but really, you're just full of shit.
[From <a href="http://dramatizations.blogspot.com/2006/12/2006-in-review.html"><cite>dramatizations: 2006 in Review</cite></a>]
</blockquote>
<p>Not so scared of people coming into my life and not sticking around anymore. I just wish more of the good ones would stick around. I tend to miss y'all a lot. You know why you are.</p>
<blockquote cite="http://dramatizations.blogspot.com/2006/12/2006-in-review.html">
The one who I know is feeling me, flat out doesn't want to be with me.
[From <a href="http://dramatizations.blogspot.com/2006/12/2006-in-review.html"><cite>dramatizations: 2006 in Review</cite></a>]
</blockquote>
<p>That certain someone and I did make a connection, didn't last though. She and I seem to have mad love for each other and chemistry but we seem to be playing a constant game of human chess with each other. So we are just friends now.</p>
<p>Believe it or not this year I actually had a girlfriend. It lasted for about two months. She didn't have any respect for me. My advice to any man who has a woman telling them about their Xs or other male friends all the time is that she doesn't want you she wants them or a combination of them. No need to deal with it, at all. For a moment I felt like I had someone, turns out my "boyfriend" title was only justification to have sex.</p>
<p>I don't need a girlfriend, I have a lot of people who want to show me their worth no matter what position they play in my life and my little boy.</p>
<blockquote cite="http://dramatizations.blogspot.com/2006/12/2006-in-review.html">
This year my little boy has made me very proud. Not just because he is a good child, but also because I was blessed with a glimpse of the man he is going to become.
[From <a href="http://dramatizations.blogspot.com/2006/12/2006-in-review.html"><cite>dramatizations: 2006 in Review</cite></a>]
</blockquote>
<p>He too is going through some stuff now. I am proud as ever about his accomplishments and how he handles most of his challenges. He has to deal with so much and does it so well. I love him. I have to be hard on him and push him, I need for him to be reminded who he is and what he has done, the choices he's made and inform him as much as I can of the choices he is yet to make.</p>
<p>I have accomplished a lot this year. I have fallen again though. I am strong. Things couldn't be any worse. I still wake, I still breath, I still stand and I still walk, forever moving forward. I have learned that when I do fall it just means that I have to stop and look and change some things that might not have been right.</p>
<p>My outlook on the coming year is still optimistic and I am ready.</p>
<blockquote cite="http://dramatizations.blogspot.com/2006/01/story-about-me.html">
Now, as we close 2005 and the most painful chapter in my life, I hope. I, not too long ago, was without hope, faith and will. Oooops, now entering the the New Year, I am full of what I see in my future.
[From <a href="http://dramatizations.blogspot.com/2006/01/story-about-me.html"><cite>dramatizations: A story about me</cite></a>]
</blockquote>
<p>This year I lost my job. I paid off more of my debt. I was a father. I was a brother. I learned to be happy and content with myself.</p>
<p>Last year the question was what is it I see before my fist. The answer is my fate. Not a fate that was written for me but a fate that I am yet to write. I have to make some moves. Make some choices. I am about to go to war and so many will not like me, some will love me and others will hate me. I will continue to tread my measures. I will probably continue to fall and get back up. This is not 2005. I am a different person. I have grown and I have lived. Here's to 2008. What you got for me?</p>
Deonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15959240415874494790noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9456050.post-50446835388722880112007-12-31T04:25:00.001-05:002007-12-31T04:25:33.972-05:00I don't really know what happened<div><div class="goalimage"><a href="http://images.43things.com/entry/325272xl.jpg"><img src="http://images.43things.com/entry/325272pw400.jpg" class="goalimagetag" alt="" /></a></div><div class="goalentry"><p>I used to drink a half gallon daily. Now I don’t even think I get a cup. I need to get back to water like <span class="caps">NOW</span>.</p></div><div class="goalprogresslink">See more progress on: <a href="http://www.43things.com/people/progress/reign4aday?on=9673831">drink more water</a></div></div>Deonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15959240415874494790noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9456050.post-59371751262917605432007-12-28T04:26:00.001-05:002007-12-28T04:26:56.100-05:00Why I want to meet DRox<div><div class="goalentry"><p>As her name implies she way “Rox!” She is fast becoming my best friend on the web, always available to me and ears are always open.</p><p>I am anxious to see how all this translates from virtual to real world.</p></div><div class="goalprogresslink"><a href="http://DRox.43people.com">Learn more about DRox</a></div></div>Deonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15959240415874494790noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9456050.post-48178823020156304172007-12-25T16:45:00.001-05:002007-12-25T16:48:58.972-05:00The 6th Month<div><div class="goalentry">
<p>I have been out of work for about 6 months now. I did not apply for unemployment right away, not until about 2 months in. I depleted my savings.</p>
<p>Recently, they cut off my unemployment. They are saying I lied on the application and they want me to pay the unemployment I did collect back. Hmmm, you know I am going to appeal this right?</p>
<p>I did get to work two days last week and I have an interview tomorrow morning. Things will get better, they couldn’t get any worse or could they?</p></div>
<div class="goalprogresslink">See more progress on: <a href="http://www.43things.com/people/progress/reign4aday?on=9182269">find a job</a></div></div>
Deonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15959240415874494790noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9456050.post-42199327320677094462007-10-29T19:31:00.001-05:002007-10-29T19:31:50.494-05:00Damn, Jena! | BlackGayBlogger.com<blockquote cite="http://www.blackgayblogger.com/2007/10/16/damn_jena/">
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stunting on the red carpet and showing the thousands of people who fought for their cause, wore black, and marched in their town for their sake that, so far, it's amounted to presenting at the BET Awards? [From <a href="http://www.blackgayblogger.com/2007/10/16/damn_jena/"><cite>Damn, Jena! | BlackGayBlogger.com</cite></a>]<br />
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Deonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15959240415874494790noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9456050.post-70071639147842382352007-10-28T20:33:00.001-05:002007-10-28T20:33:32.394-05:00It's Been So Long<div><div class="goalimage"><a href="http://images.43things.com/entry/301969xl.jpg"><img src="http://images.43things.com/entry/301969pw400.jpg" class="goalimagetag" alt="" /></a></div><div class="goalentry"><p>I haven’t tried a typing test in some time. I know that I type quite a bit faster than I used to. I don’t have access to Mavis Beacon at the moment, not sure I need it though. I type how it feels natural to me. I still have a bit of trouble with the number keys but I am sure I will work that out soon as well.</p></div><div class="goalprogresslink">See more progress on: <a href="http://www.43things.com/people/progress/reign4aday?on=2364563">learn to type</a></div></div>Deonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15959240415874494790noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9456050.post-11818242460873532512007-10-22T13:15:00.001-05:002007-10-22T13:15:59.643-05:00About 4 Months coming<div><div class="goalentry"><p>I have been looking for a new job since I lost my last one at the end of June. I was a Presentation Specialist/Graphics Operator. I have been up for several positions that were either in line or parallel to my objective, but they all seemed to fall through. With the current hiring freeze in the industry I have few options. I can shoot below, take a job for now that isn’t going to get me anywhere, I can sit and wait or I can either shoot for something above and fill in the blanks as I go, which I am sure I can.</p><p>I think sharpening my lesser promoted skills over the next few weeks and maybe putting together a simple portfolio of stuff that simply shows that I have the ability might work nicely for me. Time to start leveraging my hidden talents.</p></div><div class="goalprogresslink">See more progress on: <a href="http://www.43things.com/people/progress/reign4aday?on=9182269">find a job</a></div></div>Deonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15959240415874494790noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9456050.post-51842782862642694382007-10-22T12:15:00.001-05:002007-10-22T12:15:49.707-05:00Still Haven't Gotten My Scale<div><div class="goalentry"><p>What it has been more than a year, probably a year and a half since I said I would get a scale. I thought I had put back on the weight that I had lost in pursuit of this goal. Now my clothes are hanging off of me, more than they have in years. I need to get a scale in order to monitor my losses and gains.</p><p>I have over the course of the last year changed my eating habits. I now eat more organic products. Drink my tea unsweetened and have converted to whole wheat wherever possible. I also find I am not eating in anticipation of a hunger that hasn’t surfaced yet. No more, "I am eating this much so I will not be hungry later!"</p></div><div class="goalprogresslink">See more progress on: <a href="http://www.43things.com/people/progress/reign4aday?on=1679506">lose 5 pounds</a></div></div>Deonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15959240415874494790noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9456050.post-53752233078457821682007-10-22T12:05:00.001-05:002007-10-22T12:05:19.718-05:00Slowed Down, But Haven't Stalled<div><div class="goalentry"><p>Well since I lost my job, I had to cut back on my savings and debt repayment. I am paying about half what I was paying when I was working. The job market is bad right now. There is a hiring freeze in my industry. I have, however, managed to pay off 63% of my debt since August of 2006.</p></div><div class="goalprogresslink">See more progress on: <a href="http://www.43things.com/people/progress/reign4aday?on=1759213">get out of debt</a></div></div>Deonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15959240415874494790noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9456050.post-16375006897225543892007-06-30T16:01:00.000-05:002007-06-30T16:02:49.928-05:00I'm Unemployed, Again<p>I lost my job on Tuesday. I am looking for a new job and I should be OK for a couple of months, at least.</p>
<!-- technorati tags start --><p style="text-align:right;font-size:10px;">Technorati Tags: <a href="http://www.technorati.com/tag/unemployment" rel="tag">unemployment</a>, <a href="http://www.technorati.com/tag/jobsearch" rel="tag">jobsearch</a></p><!-- technorati tags end -->Deonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15959240415874494790noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9456050.post-88403633150015520522007-06-30T15:57:00.000-05:002007-06-30T15:58:30.083-05:00iPhone Scientifically Rated (Verdict: Great Call Quality) - Gizmodo<p>Here is one very important reason I want an iPhone. As anyone who speaks to me on a regular basis knows, the call quality on my AT&T 8525 isn't <q lang="en-us">great</q>.</p>
<p><a href="http://gizmodo.com/gadgets/apple/iphone-scientifically-rated-verdict-great-call-quality-273914.php" title"">iPhone Scientifically Rated (Verdict: Great Call Quality) - Gizmodo</a>:</p>
<blockquote cite=", http://gizmodo.com/gadgets/apple/iphone-scientifically-rated-verdict-great-call-quality-273914.php">
<p>…Their results for the iPhone? Best they've seen.</p>
<p>It scores higher on the frequency response test compared to the BlackBerry 8800, Helio Ocean, LG Prada, Nokia N95 and the Treo 750. The audio quality is great as well, as is the send frequency response…</p>
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<p>Hmmm! I can't wait to find another job.</p>
<!-- technorati tags start --><p style="text-align:right;font-size:10px;">Technorati Tags: <a href="http://www.technorati.com/tag/apple" rel="tag">apple</a>, <a href="http://www.technorati.com/tag/iphone" rel="tag">iphone</a></p><!-- technorati tags end -->Deonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15959240415874494790noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9456050.post-6302601589337710582007-06-22T22:52:00.000-05:002007-06-30T15:58:24.894-05:00Graduation Day<p>I am a very proud father. Graduation day has finally come to a close. My son, while he wasn't Valedictorian or Salutatorian, this year, his achievements did not go unnoticed. My boy… That brings a big smile to my face.</p>
<p>My son was one of 3 children chosen from his district, all from his class I might add, to be in an "elite" <a href="http://dramatizations.blogspot.com/2006/12/extremely-proud-father.html" title="Prep for Prep">academic program</a> spanning the next 7 years, with an intense 14 month prep component.</p>
<p>I am so getting ready for all of his successes.</p>
<p>Today, I am spent physically, mentally, finncially… but this is OK. I was done proud. This week, I went to a series of meetings, an orientation, his 14 hour plus senior trip and today his graduation and little family celebration afterwards, all the while going to work. <acronym title="Laugh Out Loud">LOL</acronym>, I am on my way to work now.</p>
<p>In the morning he has a picnic with Prep for Prep, where he gets to meet, get to know a little the other members in his unit. My son the superstar… I am sure he is as exhausted as I am. Can't wait to ask him about his prom tomorrow afternoon. Who did he dance with? How much fun did he have?</p>Deonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15959240415874494790noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9456050.post-74391093904944719072007-06-17T08:28:00.000-05:002007-06-17T08:36:40.907-05:00Dramatic: Happy Father's Day! Special Love all the ladies holding it
down for the absent half-men.<p><a href="http://twitter.com/reign4aday/statuses/108405462" title"">Dramatic: Happy Father's Day! Special Love all the ladies holding it down for the absent half-men.</a>:</p>
<blockquote cite="Twitter / Dramatic, http://twitter.com/reign4aday">
<p>Dramatic: Happy Father's Day! Special Love all the ladies holding it down for the absent half-men.</p>
</blockquote>Deonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15959240415874494790noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9456050.post-7642243897052821802007-06-11T03:16:00.001-05:002007-06-11T03:16:34.954-05:00Everything is a learning experience<p>I always try to learn as much as I can. Sometimes it just doesn't get done because I procrastinate or I just don't get the subject matter, like today trying to learn JavaScript or XML.</p>
<p>When I first started learning web related stuff, I seemed to get it almost immediately. I got a good basic grasp of HTML, VBScript, ASP, and I was able to write and edit minor JavaScripts. I had fun with the HTML Guru's DHTML templates. I even got interviewed at some big names and not so big names. I forgot everything because I never applied what I learned. Today all of it just seems foreign to me, but i am still interested in web development and design.</p>
<p>I am trying to figure out where to go from here. I want to learn, sometimes I get in my own way by trying to learn too much at one time. I have books. I am thinking about subscribing to one of those online tutorial sites, maybe just for the summer, so that I can get a grasp on the basics of what I am trying to learn. I think I should be able to move forward from there.</p>
<p>I guess we will see how that goes. I will not be beaten on this. I may not be able to learn it all but i can learn a good deal and be great at what i know. I am hoping I can rely on some of you for help. Maybe answering questions directly or pointing me in the right direction.</p>Deonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15959240415874494790noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9456050.post-20932726911774900762007-06-06T22:48:00.000-05:002007-06-08T15:43:04.938-05:00Bros Before Hoes<p>Isn't that how it goes? Is blood really thicker than water? Well… let's see!</p>
<p>My brother's girlfriend is a nut. Let…s see if he is going to alienate his family for her. If so, I guess we…ll "watch what happens when (she) cheats on (him)!" Her words.</p>
<p>In my book you don…t turn your back on the people who are there for you. That…s the worse form of betrayal in my book.</p>
<p>I am going to ask him if he deleted me from his friends list. If he did and that is really how he feels, then he better be ready for what ensues. If you going to act like you don…t need anyone, then you need to be ready to be man enough to carry the weight by yourself.</p>
<p>I still don…t like his ex-girlfriend for him, but she wasn…t crazy and definitely wouldn…t take out what happen between her and someone else out on him. This is what the disagreement between she and I was about. The whole "when I cheat on you" comment.</p>Deonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15959240415874494790noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9456050.post-25277401030522932102007-06-04T13:38:00.000-05:002007-06-04T13:40:39.636-05:00Baby Momma Drama<p>OK, here is the deal. As promised, though a bit late, the 1st in my series of posts about what's been going on in my life and where I stand now. I realize as much as I would like to blog often, I just have so much going on, my heart isn't always going to be in it.</p>
<p><a href="http://blog.360.yahoo.com/blog-slh1PDgyerSfCuAwD_t0q.vbDAI-?cq=1&p=9#comments" title"">Yahoo! 360° - NONNA'S NICK NACKS - Hearing the Big News, without my rose colored glasses</a>:</p>
<blockquote cite="Nonna, http://blog.360.yahoo.com/blog-slh1PDgyerSfCuAwD_t0q.vbDAI-?cq=1&p=9#comments">
<p>Recently, I am involved in a similar situation… My son's mother and my cousin. It's disgusting but once someone referred to him as my "shadow-self," said all h managed to capture was my initial charm. They used to talk about how he was trying so hard to be me. Then he got jealous and being me became beating me. He stole from me, he had to have my son's mother. "I have alway wanted you," what he told her.</p>
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<p>Last year around August, it had been brought to my attention that my son's mother and my cousin, someone whom I was very close to growing up, were seeing each other. This is not news to some of you. I do chat when I have a chance, but have found myself becoming increasingly distant in that respect too.</p>
<p>I shrugged it off and continued my life. I had just began dating since my last relationship ended four or five years prior to that time. I am over her. In my mind one man's trash is another man's gold. This true for both of them. I deal with my son's mother where the kids are concerned. Thinking back, she was important to my ecosystem. She gave me my son and I not so happily tied to her for like an eternity.</p>
<p>I really did not care, at the time anyway, as long as it didn't affect the kids. My son started to really distance himself from her. Everyone knows how much I love my son. I began to inquire as to why he didn't want to go "home." This was the week of Thanksgiving, when things blew up I mean. Before then, I noticed certain things that confirmed my suspicions, all the while keeping it to myself. Didn't want to alert the kids if they didn't already know. I just did not know how discretely the situation was being handled. My son brought to my attention the weekend prior to Thanksgiving he was really uncomfortable being over there. On that Monday, she wanted to fight. The gloves were off. I let her know I knew.</p>
<p>In her defense, she is grown and it's none of my business, none of their business and whoever told me needs to get a life and kiss her ass and a bunch of other bullshit. Dumb ass, starts making calls and cussing people out, pretty much randomly. Since no one had to tell me a thing, she was just making enemies.</p>
<p>I go over to her house to talk. End up running damage control. A "friend" of a "friend" was over there wanting to fight her. Everyone broke out when they saw me walk through the door. Hmmm! they said I had the look of death on my face.</p>
<p>Fast forward… OK, all the things said, all the things done. I am notoriously mean and I was the nice one. Hearing shit about her being afraid for her life. Hearing shit about him and his other cousin trying to push "special" drinks on her. She thought she was being set up to be raped. Still defending him. I told her I didn't want him around the kids. Can't trust him.</p>
<p>Her mother is convinced I am jealous or I just plain don't want to see her with anyone else. Why be jealous? I am turned on by ambitious women. Women who go out and get theirs. What am I going to do with a female that thinks it's acceptable to sit around and wait for a $46 check.</p>
<p>Then to find out she wasn't taking care of his school stuff at all. Missed all of his open houses, which took place between October and November. So I had to step up and be on his applications triple time. Most days I don't get home until just before he does.</p>
<p>She had one of the acronym entities involved with the protection of children pull my son out of class to question him. His counselor said he was present and that Lil' looked so uncomfortable. Neither the counselor nor his teacher had ever met her up until that point and stated so. My son told the lady that was questioning him, that he wanted to live with me.</p>
<p>Recently, she reached out to me and I had to tell her that I couldn't help and be the bad guy anymore. She tells everyone one little pieces of the story and has everyone at odds. In a nut shell, you mad your bed, lie in it.</p>
<p>In the midst of her stupidity, she lost her job several weeks ago. Which means there are likely a myriad of unnecessary battles ahead between me and her.</p>Deonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15959240415874494790noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9456050.post-60975405250964043372007-05-29T15:51:00.000-05:002007-05-29T15:53:00.921-05:00I got that feeling<p>OK, I haven't been posting much lately. I got that feeling old feeling now. So much shit has been going on… Can you say overwhelmed with life?</p>
<p>It all started early last year. I had just been conned, I had just applied for welfare… Shit just was not going the way it was supposed to. The hurt I felt having my trust betrayed, the physical sickness of me walking into the Public Assistance office, so disgusted. I never understood how, why someone could, would sign their lives away for pennies. I couldn't bring myself to collect on it, I couldn't bring myself to go into <acronym title="unsure">FEGS</acronym> each day and deal with the rabble, fuck…</p>
<p>Then as I started pulling things together and getting stuff straight, I started losing friends. I supposed if they couldn't understand my need to separate and focus, they weren't friends to begin with. I think I only bring this up right now, because I am lonely. I am without companionship, without love… Who cares, right?</p>
<p>Anyway, this could have very easily become a who done it encyclopedia. I decided to break it all down and post daily about what is on my mind at that moment. Could be once a day, twice a day or more. Stay tuned! I will bring you all up to speed and then we will move on to bigger and better things.</p>Deonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15959240415874494790noreply@blogger.com0