R.I.P. Philip Lyn

A member of my extended family passed away yesterday morning. To his immediate family and children I offer my condolences. He is no longer suffering and I am sure he's in a better place.

Post Interview Update

Given my previous post, I ended unsure of my fate. They are more confident that I will be allowed to keep the job. I am a little more at ease. I am just going to keep the wait and see attitude until the final results are in. I still have to take the drug test which I haven't had the opportunity to do this week. I am sure I'll pass it.

I was supposed to get my permanent ID today. I don't feel much like traveling tho, with the weather and all. I have to run around just to get an umbrella.

I think I will rest my eyes before I go out into the cold world.

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Post Interview

Post Interview, originally uploaded by Dramatic. My little brother said I look like the Kingpin.

Ok, here's the deal… I had an interview this morning at 8. It went well despite all the trouble I had getting there. I was short but he seemed impressed with my little accomplishments.

Training starts tomorrow at 5 pm. Seems like I have the job, right? I don't yet. I have to pass the background check, but they wanted to get me started anyway. I guess they want to keep me if possible.

Saved!?

Tonight, I was asked if I was saved. I was then asked to turn my life over to God and Jesus. I was asked to have faith. The hard part was/is turning my life over. Turning my life over… It is worth a try.

Hostel

A very, very, very disturbing movie. Now I think I'll do it slow.

Movies

Saw The Da Vinci Code yesterday, good movie. Very interesting and thought provoking — makes me want to pick that lost chapter of the Bible that has everyone up in arms, The Gospel of Judas, I think.

I also want to go see X3: The Last Stand. I am going to see that on Tuesday. While looking at some previews, I came across the trailer for this one:

Ghost Rider - 1, originally uploaded by Dramatic.

Ghost Rider - 2, originally uploaded by Dramatic.

Looks to be good.

Prom Night Pictures

Prom Day - Darrell, Prior to getting ready, originally uploaded by Dramatic.

Prom Day - Darrell and I, Damn knot, originally uploaded by Dramatic.

Prom Day - Darrell, Little bling bling, originally uploaded by Dramatic.

As promised, here are some pictures. I will have more when he comes home tonight

WOW!!!

Bemused has done it! I don't recall reading an adult story that excited me, not since I was a child anyway. She writes as though she has that "heaven's perspective" or view. I don't know how else to say it.

Breaking the Habit:

The other woman removed the satin robe and positioned herself, straddling Alicia's face. Her downy lips were parted slightly by a swollen button of flesh. The woman's sandalwood scented skin combined with her own musk was intoxicating.

Just a little taste of what's in store. I began to squirm towards the end. This is a must read.

Prom Night

Tonight is my brother's prom. His errr, ummm date looks quite nice already. He is no where to be found. He will be going on a cruise. Pictures to follow…

Not Flattered

Mickey called me today with the female formerly known as… I didn't have a problem speaking to her, I mean she was one of the people who once loved me. She was concerned that I "hated" her because she earned her self a place in my hell. She wants to know if I will attend her birthday party way in November -- advanced planning, huh.

Back then hoes didn't want me, now I'm hot hoes all on me

Anyway, I am letting my cup of "Envy" cool while I am cleaning up and I just started thinking about a couple of the weird requests that have been made of me recently. It's worse than everyone asking me for a baby in 2001.

Stephanie after leaving me for some next dude, wants to label me the "Daddy" of his kid and wants me to be at the baby shower and occupy that role and to go to the "birthing" classes with her and all that other "Daddy" stuff.

Then today the whole Mariposa thing. I am not upset, never have been, at least not about this situation. Why now? What has changed? A month or so ago I was a loser and pathetic. I mean she proclaimed "no more drama, no more drama, no more drama." I am not easily hurt, but I am wary of people who would try to hurt me intentionally, especially if they are posing as my friend. I forgive you, but things may never be the same.

So I guess I have to make some decisions. First, when is being a nice guy too much?

Twice Blessed

It's been some time since I really blogged. I have been going thru a few things. I graduated from Streetwise Partners this weekend. I didn't go to graduation, but from what I understand I was "missed." That is the word everyone used. As if that weren't enough, they went on to flatter me further. I also finished my production graphics training. I got perfect scores across the board. Now I am looking to get employed.

Here are some of the comments I got today:

You've had 'it' together since SWP started, so I am excited to see where you can take your own business.

You make us all very proud to be in this program :)

...it is good to hear that you are continuing your streak of perfect scores congratulations on your continued success.

Congratulations on your perfect score (though I have to say it doesn't surprise me)!

...seem to be blessed with sensitivity and intelligence. A burdon in a way (it hurts being you sometimes) but you are important to those around you in more ways than you probably know.

Today was a great day!

I'm Baaaack!

I have broadband again. I should be blogging a little more frequently.

What is it?

I feel like writing a little tonight.

What is it about people not understanding that I don't want to talk all the time? By my very nature, I am not very talkative. I am taciturn even. I am also always thinking of miscellaneous things. For instance I am in training to be a "desktop op." I have been processing the outcomes of some Excel "Custom" number format formulas. [=50]$0;_$0 may not mean anything to most, but it is a way to manipulate the way the numbers appear in Excel. I fear that small stuff like this will make people who are important now less attractive to me later on. I find that I am becoming more involved with "Me." I mean I am trying to effect a massive overhaul on my life, isn't me the right place for my mind to be? Why is it that friend, enemy, whatever can't seem to understand that?

What should I do?

Went to my sister’s a little while ago. I needed to pick up my Epson Stylus Photo 2200, software and other miscellaneous things. When I got there, I found that some of the rest of my stuff was stolen.

What am I to do? Accept it and move on that’s what. I will be in a very different place in my life shortly.

See more progress on: Be reborn into the sunshine

No ITA

I can not get the ITA voucher because for what I want they require you to have a degree. I have given up on the ITA voucher but not this goal. When I get this job next month I will start a fund for my certs. Aside from that I am not sure how Adobe will structure the certifications from here on since they’ve acquire Macromedia.

See more progress on: Get ACE Certified

1, 2, 3, 4...

I started meditating last night about this time. I was counting my breath as a way to center myself in the now. I counted each exhale up to ten and then I started over. Urban Dharma said that if I counted eleven, it meant that I was not paying attention and that I should start over.

Right now I am just waiting for things to die down here so that I can start again.

See more progress on: Start meditating

Flashback: High School

After the whole Steve thing on my walk to the train station, it was just a few yards away, some high school kids spotted me and began talking about my beard. One mentioned, "That's hot, when I'm older, I'm gonna have my shit just like that!"

I caught a flashback from high school. I hated to go into the locker room. I didn't feel comfortable being compared to the other boys. "When I go away this summer, I am going to come back just like that!" He, can't remember his name, was talking about my full beard and chest hair. Yes, I had a full beard at 14. I stopped getting prepared for gym. Later on I started getting dressed with the girls. I was just cool with most of them like that.

Unnecessary Praise

I was sitting in front of the Brooklyn Museum on Eastern Parkway this evening when Steve walks up to me with some dude. Then he starts going on about how people be saying big guys can't get girls and how many he seen me get and how he seen me do one of them and how I ain't got to run game and how even though they know the truth they are still down. He told his boy, "He a bigger pimp than you, I even seen him beat." Then his boy was like, "Can I hang out with him?"

Isn't this what it's supposed to be like? Why would you want to be with someone you have to lie to? What's up with dudes chasing females all the time anyway?

Steve forgot to mention he was a thirsty ass, immature… ummm, nevermind. I just don't understand. Then got nerve to ask if he can get at my leftovers. Leftovers or not, the females I have messed with wouldn't give him the time of day.

Go To Hell!

The female formerly known as Mariposa
Circle I Limbo

The Pope
Circle II Whirling in a Dark & Stormy Wind

Saddam Hussein
Circle III Mud, Rain, Cold, Hail & Snow

Osama bin Laden
Circle IV Rolling Weights

George Bush
Circle V Stuck in Mud, Mangled

River Styx

Barry, Vielka
Circle VI Buried for Eternity

River Phlegyas

Shanique, Yeno
Circle VII Burning Sands

People who don't love their children, hurt children
Circle IIX Immersed in Excrement

Jessica Loss (xxxangelloss@yahoo.com) — she conned me this year, do not trust her.
Circle IX Frozen in Ice

Design your own hell

Disclaimer: Some people on here are on just for fun, they should know who they are and should be able to take a joke. Others probably should be on here but they aren't worthy of my mention or your attention. Hell will be amended.

Why…

…would a "friend" call with the purpose of telling you that you are pathetic? Apparently, that friend isn't a friend at all. For someone to feel the need to belittle another for any reason just shows how empty their lives are. You too can be alright!!!