you said...

first of i needed to update some of the info from dec 22, '04 post. i did get to spend x-mas with my lil' boy. while it did not come off the way i wished it could, i was able to take him and his sister, dooney to the movies on x-mas eve. we saw lemony snicket's "a series of unfortunate events," funny, funny. jim carrey did it again. not his funniest, but this is the first kids movie i was able to stay up for in years.

now i want to clear up some shit. all the people who wanna bitch about not being mentioned in on these pages. if u don't fall under the categories listed after the few names shouted, fuck you, get over it. if you do qualify as one of the people in my corner, then i love you, but u still need to get over it. if that's not enough, have a coke and a smile and shut the fuck up!!!

here's the deal tho... i been feeling like shit lately, not necessarily feeling sorry for myself, but i feel alone. i feel like there are few people in my corner and some of those people are only there when it comes in handy. i tried to talk about it, but i got shut down. i know you are probably tired of hearing about my issues, but i never got tired of hearing about yours. we always been there for each other, and i know that will probably always be the case. this doesn't change that we are distant. i love you. you said you'd never leave me all alone, you said you'd always be there.

what happened? i was expecting us to take our last walks together. we weren't ever gonna be married but we promised, 'til death do us part.

even my family is consorting with my enemies... i mean what the fuck. y'all keep coming sideways. i'm coming with the guillotine. get the fuckin' choppin' block ready.

and you, you said you wanted to be there, you said you'd never leave me, where are you?