suffering...

and as it ended, so it must begin… in tears…

i keep hearing in different ways that things must end so that they can begin and there can be no begining without an ending and vice versa. i don't know how true this is, but i do understand it.

i must have died every minute of every hour of every day since july 28, 2002. that was the day destiny moved away. i am not one to cry, let alone for a female… but the loss, emptiness and pain i felt was unbearable.

few things in my lifetime have caused me to be affraid, but loneliness… i don’t know… that and being without my son.

but it's time to take that deep breath and keep it movin'.